MINDFUCKED

I miss the touch of your hand in mine, and the trembling, the shaking of my voice with yours, I miss the ever so slidely caress of your lips on our imaginary kisses but most of all I miss me once more. Like that other time, when the sun seemed brighther, not so heavy, not so hard on us, I miss my laughing, I miss me when I was with u, I talked with u in my head al the time. I miss me, most definitely because I like me better when on those times.

We stop searching for monsters when we realized they were inside of us.

xxx

Rom.

Brick by Brick

The weight of my words
Are like feathers from a bird
My mouth, it moves but you won’t hear a thing
Cause I’ve dug myself deep
I managed to fit both my hands and feet
All my little white lies
Smell like a big old bucket of bleach

In one ear
And out your other
So lock and key
You won’t open up for me

So brick by brick
I am breaking through these walls
Oh between you and me
I’m not giving up
I’m not giving giving up

I guess
And it feels like you’re in China
And I am in Peru
When ever I am sleeping next to you
We can hear the crickets singing
Oh all throughout the night
OH boy can we just get used
To something so right?

And sure I confess
I’m a mess
I’m a mess of mistakes
But please count to ten
Before you go and throw it all away

So brick by brick
I am breaking through these walls
Oh between you and me
I’m not giving up
I’m not giving giving up
On on on us

Cause if you give up
Then what am I supposed to do
All these dreams
Never will come true
Without you

Brick by brick
I am breaking through these walls
Oh between you and me
I’m not giving up
I’m not giving giving up

Oh baby don’t give up
On this love
Don’t give up
On this love

u_u

la amistad es el limbo de los feos.

We are never gonna be as young as we are tonight

never again.

ready to come

I've came to realize so much that my hearts fails to comprehend whether this can be real or not, I cannot understand the whys and the hows but they are there and even If I try not to see then, I come across them so easily. I can't understand, what when wrong, how can things be like this. I see the fall and the path, is right there, it's me that does not want to turn back and look at it. Because I cannot understand how can anyone say such things, act in such manner, I only trust God will make it right, I won't fight back, I never tried to. I've learnt so much about myself that I know understand what they mean when they talk about loving you, for you. I don't love me, I still don't, is hard for me to shake the shades and the layers, It'll take time, commitment, faith. I feel the whole world is pushing me to the edge, just to see me get strong. I won't do this again, I won't hear myself fall. I did it before, I was alone. But now, now I'm not. I'll allow myself to be loved, to be cared, I'll let them in and even if I feel shy, blushed, red. I will do it. I see my friend missing his father, ppl that I love dieing and I see then I should hold on tight and feel proud. Get myself out there and just shine. I can be a firework. I WILL BE a firework. For me, for him, for her. For everyone. Even if this heart hurts so bad, even If I feel my chess sinking, I will face it with a grint. Show must go on, right? I'm sorry I can't be perfect, but I won't allow myself be sorry for been me. I meant no harm, I had no cruel intentions, I'm whotever ppl say, I can take it, I can put up w/this pain. Because I can love. Been adopted does not make me any sorry little bastard, there's no such thing, it makes me blessed, kissed by angel's lips prolly, I've never hide it, I will never do that. I know I cannot go back to the beggining, but I also know that I can always go back home, home in my job, home in my friends, home in my MOM's arms, in my father's smile and the ppl's that I love laughter. I cherish everything I got. I miss the little things, but I will never let go on what matters. P/S: don't let the shadow spoil the view of what's around you.

xxx

Rom.