exercise

at some dark place in my head, beneath the waves of sound and memories, images and songs, feelings and experiences, lies the truth that I'm so scared to see maybe I should take a look, try to stare for a moment let this rythm cave in and pull at random sth out, or leave it open for seconds and just stop my fingers from censorship. I might need to get pills, alcohol, life, I think I need to let myself go. Birds, butterflies, garden green grass, drugs, my baby, mountains, life, my cousings, him, hands, bed birds, music, head, headache, strong, my uncle, my mom, my uncle, you got to be the best, challenge yourself, ugly, fat, retard... *closing again*

you make it easier when life gets hard

7 seconds away

We are one week away, 7 days away from the end of this period and I can tell I seen a side of my yet unknown, a savage, natural, animal side, yet not tammed, yet not socially capable that is a part of me. I've met myself unlike any other year. And I'm happy about it. I now Know what I like, what I don't, I know that as much as I thought I knew myself, I don't. That as much as I thought I was defined, I'm not. I look in desperate at times, fragile... but real. I'm real for ones. I can face my monsters and I can take a run if I want to. I know now that I'm one step closer to the truth, and eventhough it was always staring at my face, I know understand things differently, I know what I love, how I love and what I can offer. Good or bad, I'm not a product, I'm me. I deserve to be loved for me. I will then carry my weight, carry my choices like an old ball and chain and walk proud, because I'm capable. I have to show what I'm able to give, how bright I can glow. I'm my own story.

xxx

Rom.

my New year's resolution :)

.dancing queen.

maybe

and I have to love me

because your hate won't bring me down.

Promiss.

really

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JK

xP

I've been alone with you inside my mind
And in my dreams I've kissed your lips a thousand times
I sometimes see you pass outside my door
Hello, is it me you're looking for?

I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your smile
You're all I've ever wanted, (and) my arms are open wide
'Cause you know just what to say
And you know just what to do
And I want to tell you so much, I love you ...

I long to see the sunlight in your hair
And tell you time and time again how much I care
Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow
Hello, I've just got to let you know

'Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely, or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying, I love you ...

Hello, is it me you're looking for?
'Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying ... I love you